Things I'll Miss

So we are rounding a corner in this pregnancy...they say the safe zone is 34 to 37 weeks and today marks 34! O. EM.GEE. Where did the time go and what have I been doing and how is this happening? There is no going back. There's nothing we can do but trudge forward. Everyday is one day closer. And I find myself having mild panic attacks when i REALLY stop to think about what that means.

There are still a few things to be done. His room isn't finished, but is getting there. The hospital bag has not been packed, nor have I really thought about it. Nor would I even know what to pack. So far, I've had 2 baby showers, and one more next weekend (more to come on those, but they were both WONDERFUL and I felt so loved).

Things are for sure getting harder. Like sleeping. I can barely turn from side to side. I'm a whale with no ab strength, just baby. Heart burn is awful, when it's there. I go pee like 6 times a night. No. Joke. I've been having contractions when I go in for routine monitoring. First they were 5 to 7 minutes apart. Then 2 to 4. Last time I went in they were 3 minutes apart. They don't really hurt, so it's not a big deal until they do, but still very weird!

I've pretty much complained this whole pregnancy. I will say second trimester was good to me. But first was the most miserable time of my life and third has just been kinda rough.

So, I thought it would be a challenge to write down what I think I'll miss about pregnancy...and I'm up for the challenge:)

I'll miss feeling Jace move around inside me. It is the most amazing thing. I can't explain it, but it's mine. This life that is inside my body. He sleeps, he wakes up and he moves about. My body is his habitat. It's weird and creepy, but it's really cool and beautiful. I love seeing my stomach moving all around, knowing I have a squirmy, active son in there.

I'll miss that when Jace wakes up in the middle of the night to squirm and kick, I can semi try to ignore it and at least rest if not sleep through it. It's nice having him in a contained environment for now. Once he's out and screaming at the top of his lungs, it might be harder to ignore/sleep through it. It might also be frowned upon by CPS. 

I might miss the conversation it brings. Never a dull elevator ride when people are constantly asking 'how far along are you?' 'is it a boy or girl?' etc. The need for shoving your face into your Iphone is unnecessary when you know you have something to talk about with the stranger who's right beside you.

I might miss how kind people are. Doors held open. More smiles offered. Help offered. And people seem less hesitant to tell you you are pretty when you're pregnant. Maybe because they count it as the good deed they are doing for the miserable, fat lady...but some people are pretty quick to tell you about that baby 'glow', or how small you are (in proportion to your stomach), but there are also those that tell you how huge you are. So I won't miss that. Or the ones that ask how far along you are and say 'That's all?! you look like you're gonna pop tomorrow!'...yea won't miss that one probably either.

I'll miss being able to eat and gain weight and not feel bad. Once he's out, it's game on. Back to the weight loss attempts. REALLY watching what you eat, exercising as often as you can, etc. It's nice that my weight is currently expected...and not a product of laziness/lack of self- control. 

I might miss Owen having to put my socks and shoes on for me. Just because I think it's funny. He never knows if the socks should go over my leggings or under. And it's always amusing to see him struggle to put them on me, like I'm a 3 year old who can't figure out.

So now that it's on record...there are SOME things that aren't so terrible about being pregnant. And a lot of people I know have actually LOVED being pregnant..so if you haven't been yet, don't be discouraged. I really think I may have been a special case. Really.